Two years ago, you officially became my son, but you were my son months before that. These last two years have thrown a lot of curve balls our way but as a family we have conquered them. Last year around this time dad and I made the decision to enroll you in a private school. We were worried and scared as what this change would mean. It turned out to be a very good decision.
You have thrived this year. You feel safe and are becoming your true self. You've learned to express your emotions with words instead of with actions. Your artistic abilities have blossomed, it amazes me to see this creative side of you emerge. Your ability to watch a video or look at a picture and replicate it, is a skill I wish I had.
This year we also were given the gift of re-connecting with your first foster family. See pictures of you and hearing stories of your time with them has helped us help you. Some of the stories you have told us became clearer and seeing your face light up as you see pictures and remember the happy times with them. I will forever be thankful for them opening up and sharing their memories with us.
You make me laugh on a daily basis. I feel a little bad that you are learning the fine art of sarcasm from us, but it makes me and others laugh. We just need to teach you the right time and place for it.
You have a thirst for knowledge and are always asking questions. Sometimes we don't have the answers to them, and sometimes you disagree with what you tell but you're learning to accept that things aren't always the way you want them to be. You recently told me you no longer want to win because then you can't learn from your mistakes.
You have learned so much in the last two years and will continue to learn and grow. Last week you told me when you grow up you want to be a professional golfer, football player, baseball player, help kids in foster care, help animals, help the homeless, and build things. That's quite an ambitious list, I'm sure it will change over the years but I look forward to watching you figure out who you want to be.
Dawn's Developments
Monday, August 7, 2017
Friday, February 3, 2017
The Problem With Labels
I've been struggling with this issue for quite some time, but in the last few months it has become
more apparent than ever. The issue is I hate labels, no not the kind you use to mail a package or sew inside your clothing, but the labels used to categorize people. I know hate is a strong word and I try not to use it, I honestly wish there was something stronger to use in this case as I'm not sure that hate clearly articulates how much I really, really don't like labels.
There are many words that describe who I am, either now or in my past
These are just a few, but none of these define who I am as a person. They are but a small part of who I am. All of these labels aren't the problem. The problem is the bias and perception that rears its head when people hear a label and they automatically assume they know everything about you.
more apparent than ever. The issue is I hate labels, no not the kind you use to mail a package or sew inside your clothing, but the labels used to categorize people. I know hate is a strong word and I try not to use it, I honestly wish there was something stronger to use in this case as I'm not sure that hate clearly articulates how much I really, really don't like labels.
There are many words that describe who I am, either now or in my past
- Human
- Blogger
- Photographer
- Teacher
- World traveler
- Geek
- Bookworm
- Mother
- Daughter
- Wife
These are just a few, but none of these define who I am as a person. They are but a small part of who I am. All of these labels aren't the problem. The problem is the bias and perception that rears its head when people hear a label and they automatically assume they know everything about you.
Labels bias our perceptions, thinking and behavior. Before, you take offense bias isn't always a bad thing. It is a natural part of human behavior. The brain is constantly looking for ways to process information. One way to do this is to look for patterns to categorize things with labels for easy recall. The problem is there are always exception to the rule, but some people don't take those exceptions into account. "I met one person who was a {fill in the blank} therefore everybody in this category is just like them." How do you know from a sample size of one whether you met the rule or an exception to the rule?
I normally try to ignore when I encounter biases based on labels, but lately it seems to be getting worse. I am a mom. But labeling me as a mom isn't enough I get sub-categorized as a working mom or an adoptive mom or mom of a special needs child. Then within each of these groups there are additional labels and classifications. Each label comes with it's own unique set of preconceived notions about what that means.
I am a female working in the tech industry. I have held many roles including technical support, client services, sales engineer, product engineering and product marketing. Each of these roles has required me to possess a high degree of technical knowledge. Unfortunately when people hear my current title "Director of Product & Solution Marketing" they assume I am not technical. At the end of last year I had an article rejected from a publication because I am in marketing and was told in the future have somebody more technical submit an article. I know I am technical, but I couldn't get past the label and bias associated with my title. I will continue to encounter this bias and will continue to try to change people's perception of who I am.
Over the past 15 years I have come to expect this type of bias at work but that doesn't make it less frustrating. What I am more disheartened by is the pervasiveness of negative labels being used to categorize people with a difference of opinion from our own. When did being a conservative or a liberal become a bad thing? How have the definitions of these morphed into something unrecognizable and been turned into derogatory insults. As soon as a word is uttered in disagreement, you are labeled as a liberal, a "libtard", a conservative, a "deplorable" or whatever the insult of the day is.
Broad, sweeping generalizations are damaging and don't allow us to see past a label to an individual. And unfortunately once a label has been applied it is very difficult to get out from underneath it. While labels are a natural way for our brain to process information, we need to work hard to ensure that the labels don't morph into damaging, negative stereotypes and a resulting lack of empathy.
I tell my son on a regular basis that he doesn't have to like everybody he meets but he still needs to treat them with respect. This is becoming harder to do when we seem to be constantly surrounded by negativity. I will continue to look for the positives and the good in the world and do my best to fight my bias and see past labels.
I tell my son on a regular basis that he doesn't have to like everybody he meets but he still needs to treat them with respect. This is becoming harder to do when we seem to be constantly surrounded by negativity. I will continue to look for the positives and the good in the world and do my best to fight my bias and see past labels.
Sunday, January 22, 2017
Looking back and forward
10 years ago today I wrote my first blog post. When I started it was a way for me to share
information on my travels and life living abroad with family and friends back
home. This was before the days of Facebook, well maybe it existed but it wasn’t
used as widely as it is today. As my
life changed the blog did as well. I
never imagined when I started this blog how big a part of my life it would be
today – not personally, but professionally. I don’t blog as much personally but now a big
part of my job is to blog. Maybe because
I spend so much of my days writing for work, I’m burnt out at the end of the
day. Or maybe I’m burnt out at the end
of the day because I am now wrangling a cat, a dog, a husband and an 8 year
old.
It’s strange to look back over the last 10 years
and think about how much things have changed. That
one tiny decision I made to move to London has changed my life in many
ways. Had I never left Boston, I may
have never moved to Seattle. If I didn’t
move to Seattle I would not have met Dave.
If I hadn’t met Dave I would not have moved to Colorado. If I didn’t move to Colorado, junior would
not be my son. Were the last 10 years
all great, no. There were some definite
hardships and tears but today there is no place else I would rather be. (Disclaimer:
right now I’m sitting in an airport getting, heading out on a business
trips. There are many places I would
rather be than at the airport, but you know what I mean).
Through these moves I have met some amazing people,
developed lasting friendships, and learned a great deal about myself. Sitting here thinking about the past, I can’t
help but think of the future. Not
knowing what the future holds is always a scary thing for me. While I am scared I am also hopeful and
optimistic. One of our family traditions
at bed time is to discuss what our favorite part of the day is. Even when a day is dreary and miserable we
have to focus on the positive. To dwell
on the negatives is not good. I will
continue to take risks, speak my mind, and attempt to be a positive influence
to others. I may even blog about
it.
Sunday, January 1, 2017
2016 Year in Review
2016 was a rough year, at some times it seems like there were more lows than highs. But one thing we are teaching junior is no matter how bad a day is there is always a positive in it. Instead of focusing on the negatives I choose to look at the highlights. Last night at dinner we shared our top five favorite moments of the year.
This isn't as easy as it seems, especially when people keep changing their minds. Junior decided he needed to give us six items, and I was told I cheated with one of my selections.
Here are the top moments for our family.
Me
This isn't as easy as it seems, especially when people keep changing their minds. Junior decided he needed to give us six items, and I was told I cheated with one of my selections.
Here are the top moments for our family.
Me
- Starting a new job. I was fortunate to find a job that enabled me to work part time as we moved to Seattle in 2015. In 2016 I was ready to go back to work full time, unfortunately the company I was working for was unable to offer me a full time position, but a great opportunity came my way. I am still working from home which is great and trips to the company's headquarters enable me to visit family and friends which is an added perk.
- Renovating our new home. You may think I'm crazy but I enjoy remodeling projects. Well I enjoy choosing materials, I dislike the unexpected surprises that often appear. One unexpected find on our recent renovation led to our installing my favorite feature in the house - a hidden bookshelf door. What else do you do when you find a water heater sealed behind drywall in the master bedroom.
- Vacations and travel throughout the year. I was told I cheated with this selection and I couldn't lump all vacations together as they were not all equal. I say hogwash. I love to travel and explore new places. Vacations this year took us to visit family and friends, attend opening day at Wrigley Field and see the team that would go on to become the World Series Champions, and spend time relaxing on the beach. I also managed a weekend away with a friend to knock another state off my list and visited South Dakota. Only four more states to go.
- Concerts at the zoo. We took junior to his first concert, Weird Al, at the zoo. He loves his music and we liked the fact that when he got bored there was a supervised play area we could take him to. Dave and I also went to see Brandi Carlile there, I think this was the fifth time we've seen her and I never get tired of her shows.
- Junior's new school. The 2014-2015 school year was rough and stressful. Over the summer we made the tough decision to enroll junior in a new private school that was opening near our house. Three months in and I would say it was absolutely the right decision. He is having a much better year and the school is willing to work with us and figure out strategies that work for junior. Being in the right environment makes such a difference. I love that he gets upset when he can't go to school because he is sick or there is a holiday.
Dave's list
Junior's list
- Helping Paddy with her legs. The dog is getting old and has arthritis. Junior is responsible for giving her medicine to help with the arthritis every morning.
- Getting a new house.
- Spending time with the family.
- Playing in the snow.
- Eating at the pig truck. Ever since junior saw a TV show about places to eat in Seattle that featured Maximus and Minimus he wanted to eat there. This summer his wish came true.
- Learning martial arts at school. (This was added after I mentioned him going to a new school)
Sunday, November 13, 2016
Interview of an 8 year old adoptee and his mom
For national adoption awareness I decided to interview
junior. We talked about what this would
mean and that I would be sharing this on my blog. I showed him that I don’t use his name or
pictures on my blog and read him some of the blog posts. He agreed to being interviewed if he could
ask me questions as well.
During the interview I asked him a question, then he
asked me a question. For the blog I have
separated the interviews. His answers to
my questions are first followed by my answers to his questions.
What
does it mean to be adopted?
Somebody takes care of you and you live with them
forever.
It means a lot.
You can’t breathe, it’s super cool, it’s like the best thing that ever
happens. It’s super special. One day you’re with a foster family and you open
your eyes and you’re with another family that loves you very much.
What
are the 5 best things about you?
I’ve got a family that loves me very much.
I learn quickly.
I have good grades in class sometimes.
My teacher likes me.
Mom and dad care about me more than anything
else.
Why
are some kids adopted?
So they can have their own family.
How
does it feel to be adopted?
Tiring. You
have to move from family to family and it’s sad. It feels good but not exactly the way you
want it to be. I can’t see previous families. It’s sad that I can’t see them.
Why
did we adopt you?
Because you guys wanted a son.
You wanted the type of sun that keeps you warm on
earth. (In case you didn't know he is learning the fine art of sarcasm and humor)
How
did you feel on your adoption day?
Happy. Scared
because I didn’t know if I really wanted to be adopted.
What
do you want to do when you grow up?
I want to start a company that helps kids that are in
foster care.
Do
you ever think about your other families?
Sometimes. But
I mostly think about beer.
Who’s
your hero?
Police men, doctors and firemen.
Favorite
thing about being part of this family?
Having people come over to our house getting to know
your friends, having parties or spending time with family at Thanksgiving and
Christmas.
According to Dave it’s because we all chose one
another.
What’s
the hardest thing about being a kid?
That I don’t get my way. Life is hard.
Junior’s
interview of me
What
was it like to be adopted
I wasn’t adopted.
I can tell you what it was like for me to adopt you. It was one of the happiest days of my
life. I was so happy you chose us and
wanted to be a part of our family. I was
also worried about what your future would be like. I will always worry about you.
What
was it like to have me with you.
We were scared at first since we had never been parents
before and didn’t know much about you.
But we do the best we can and we learn from our mistakes.
What
is it like to have me as a son.
Every day is an adventure. I never know what you’re going to do or what
you’re going to say. You amaze me in
some way every day. Some days you amaze
me in good ways and some days you amaze in bad ways. I love watching you learn and grow.
What’s
it like to have more family, I wasn’t part of your family in the beginning.
It was an adjustment but we wanted a son and are
figuring it out.
Would
you adopt a teenager
No we wanted to adopt a boy between the ages of 3 and
8.
Jr: But I’m 8
now, so it’s time for me to leave. I’ll
go pack my suitcase and grab some beer.
How
did you like to be teased by Tag (Tag was a cat I had 5 years
ago, junior never knew him)
Tag didn’t tease me.
He liked me.
What
was it like when Tag ran away – Was it painful were you happy. You probably weren’t happy but Paddy and Koda
were.
I was sad and worried.
We tried to catch him a number of times but he didn’t want to live with
us anymore.
How
hard was it to adopt me?
It was hard, we had to go to a lot of classes and talk
to a lot of people before we could adopt you.
Even though it was hard I wouldn’t change it.
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